2793) I just realized just how many of us only truly live at night, when we don’t have the prying eyes of society to keep us locked in our own bodies, when we can finally relax and be ourselves without worry of ridicule and fear of bigotry, i simultaneously realized just how much i want to see the sun.

2790) Why is it that after 2 months of HRT do I feel like maybe this is a mistake? Like I’d be happier as a guy? It almost feels like I’m forcing myself to take the pills every morning against my will. Something doesn’t make sense and more confused than ever. I can’t tell if I’m in a rut once again or maybe I need to stop.

2787) I have been constantly trying to get out of the closet and tell people that I want to transition. My parents and sister all say they “accept it but don’t understand” and its been oddly hindering my progress. Its been 1 year since I opened up, and have made no progress. Im getting so fed up with my parents lack of attention and true support, despite me talking about it many times to hushed words and the classic “Thats nice dear”, that im tempted to go and do it without their approval.

2786) For one or two months, I was obsessed with the inevitable question: am I a man, or truly a woman? I finally found the answer: it doesn’t matter. These are just labels needed by other people, I didn’t have to carry this burden. The true question was: how do I feel living as a woman? The answer was and still is: real good. This fact being clear to me, must say, people now see me as a woman. Turning the page on doubts allowed me to go further.

2785) Whenever i think how i would be as a girl i always picture myself so much happier than i am now. Im moving in a few months and i think it would be the perfect time to start my transition. I havent told anyone though because i am afraid of rejection.