949) I have not answered the question "how are you doing?" honestly in 6 years.
June 2012
948) I'm a trans lesbian who thinks penises are repulsive. I have no problem with cis lesbians not being into my penis when it's something I've always loathed having? I don't expect another lesbian to be attracted to my genitals, and I wouldn't want that anyway. My penis causes me gender dysphoria because it's incongruous with my gender identity. But it also causes me sexual dysphoria because it's also incongruous with my sexual identity. I don't want what I tucking between my legs to define me.
May 2012
947) Pronouns never really bothered me. I mean, I know how hard it is to change that sort of habit, but recently, more and more, I never EVER want to hear the word "he" again.
946) I have a problem. I'm pre-everything. But I have girls clothes, and sometimes I try wearing them. When I have them on, it's ok, but after a while, and especially after I look in the mirror, it just feels wrong. It looks wrong. I am a guy in girls clothes. So I get really angry that Im a guy, that I was born with this body, that I am not on the outside who I am on the inside. So I cry and I shout and I throw things. That makes me feel even worse. I dont think I can ever enjoy dressing as a girl.
945) I'm sad to say that I get more depressed and dysphoric from unpassing trans-girls than beautiful cis-girls.
944) Even as a bit of a crossdresser, I played football through two years of middle school. During my freshman year of high school, my dad pretty much forced me to play and I later quit because it wasn't his choice. I'm so glad that I got the courage to leave because if I had sticked with it and played all four years, becoming some muscled and annoying jock, I probably wouldn't have found out who I truly was.
943) Whenever I look on my Facebook feed, I always constantly see my sister liking or sharing pro-LGBT pictures. I may be hesitant as hell to come out to the world, but I'm thrilled and proud that my sister would probably be incredibly loving of the new me. After all, I was such a huge prick to her as a boy anyways. :P
942) I used to be inspired a lot by strong, risk-taking, leading men in film and television, but now, for women. However, those same things I looked up to and strove to be are now quickly turning into things that make me incredibly horny. :P
941) The only thing I can appreciate my male self for are my wide hips and hourglass-ish form. Wanting to be a musician and dancer will be that much easier now. :)
940) As a kid, I never fell into that phase that most boys had with "girls have cooties." Rather, I just sat on the sidelines saying that "boys are fucking idiots" and proceeded to play with the girls.
939) I'm afraid of what's going to happen if/when I come out to my family and friends, but I'm equally terrified of what will happen to *me* if I don't.
938) I finally bought hormones off the internet, but it makes me really nervous to take them. To get myself to take them, I think about how ugly I'd be if I didn't have them. But then I think, hormones or not, I'll probably still end up ugly anyway.
937) I don't identify as trans b/c I've never identified as either gender (even though I am biologically male). But at times I so desperately wish I was female I'm jealous of trans people for being able to commit to a gender as part of their identity. Other times I think wanting to be female is just a recurring fancy I have, and that I'm just a fake or a flake and can't even be part of the trans community.
936) I'm a pansexual transwoman, but I actively support civil-marriage by going to gay pride parades, Unitarian Universalist churches (they're amazing people, seriously), and writing in a column for my college newspaper about the issue. It's time for the bullshit to end. It's time for same-sex marriage to be legalized.
935) I'm extremely ambivalent. I can never be born a female. As long as there isn't a way for a person to be literally reborn female, I'll always see transitioning and surgery as a cosmetic solution to an inborn identity crisis.
934) I once attempted to burn my penis with a lighter. I'm not especially feminine, but I know what I'm not a fan of. I also intentionally OD'd on the only antidepressants I've ever been prescribed because the dysphoria I felt watching my favorite movie, Gia.
933) I used to be addicted to The Sims. For so long I used to waste the days away playing out how I wished my life could have been, who /I/ could have been. Then, when I started transition, I realized I didn't need that anymore - finally /my/ life was the one truly worth living. I've sworn off the game and haven't played since :)
932) I've been wanting to produce video game related youtube videos for several years now. I even have all the equipment purchased and set up. I even have content recorded. But I also feel that a lot of the gaming community are extremely transphobic, so I just keep putting it off more and more.
So I’ve been thinking about adding more tags to the posts, to both the already posted and future ones. Not for searching on tumblr, but to better categorize the confessions (I’ll make a page on this tumblr called “Tags” or something and users can just select a tag and see all confessions relating to said tag or something.)
What tags do you think I should use? Keep in mind it’ll be a while because there’s almost 1000 confessions already submitted, so don’t expect it like, immediately.
That and I’m going to wait about a day so everyone has a chance to give suggestions.
For an example of what I’m talking about, you can see the other confessions tumblr I run here. I have tag links on the left and when a user clicks it, they can choose to see tags from just one specific show. Basically that, but for this tumblr.
here’s a link to my personal tumblr cause I’m selfish and like promoting myself.
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931) A bunch of my old friends got together recently after coming back from our first year of university. I went with a friend I was already out to and then I started to hit on my old best friend. He got really into it, and like the shenanigan lovers I/we are, I started hinting towards who I was. He instantly got it and we both started laughing like crazy. He's now my boyfriend. XD
