2787) I have been constantly trying to get out of the closet and tell people that I want to transition. My parents and sister all say they “accept it but don’t understand” and its been oddly hindering my progress. Its been 1 year since I opened up, and have made no progress. Im getting so fed up with my parents lack of attention and true support, despite me talking about it many times to hushed words and the classic “Thats nice dear”, that im tempted to go and do it without their approval.
2786) For one or two months, I was obsessed with the inevitable question: am I a man, or truly a woman? I finally found the answer: it doesn’t matter. These are just labels needed by other people, I didn’t have to carry this burden. The true question was: how do I feel living as a woman? The answer was and still is: real good. This fact being clear to me, must say, people now see me as a woman. Turning the page on doubts allowed me to go further.
2785) Whenever i think how i would be as a girl i always picture myself so much happier than i am now. Im moving in a few months and i think it would be the perfect time to start my transition. I havent told anyone though because i am afraid of rejection.
2784) For the last few months or so ive been thinking how much i hate being a guy. Ive done lots and lots of research about the whole process and am about 75% sure i want to go through with it. The only problem is the costs.
2782) I feel awful because despite not really being like it, I do want to be pretty. It’s not a focus of mine, and I would say I’m not shallow… but I want to be seen as beautiful and want to be able to see myself as beautiful.
2780) I’ve been faring better since removing toxic people from my life and people who I thought were my friends, my self-esteem is improving and I’m becoming resilient. I still can’t believe I thought so low of myself to hang around with people like that. Also, I don’t want to do this but my family are negatively impacting me, I am trying my best to educate them but it’s so difficult and I feel like I have little choice but to remove them from my life as well.
2779) It was a major shock to transition. Pre, I was a straight guy. And then as I transitioned I had to deal with all the shit that comes with being gay and a trans woman. It was crazy and a little sad to see the difference on how people treated me.
2778) It stings when people comment on my poor passing because I’m in no position to pass right now. I’m a minor, with family who holds me to a masculine role. I want to look more feminine, but I CAN’T. I hate this mentality I’ve seen with people that if I don’t pass, I’m lesser.