1378) I’m 26 now, and I’m so scared that I just completely destroyed my adult life as a half freak woman. I’ll never grow enough breast, have enough butt, curvy enough waist, good enough voice. I’m scared that I have to start hrt now before I get older while I’m still in the military, as if being dishonorably discharged as “a basket case” is less threatening than having to continue living my life in deep stress and pain as this disgusting male freak. I want to die right now, or transition now.